sometimes im just tired of it all really.
i feel like my family doesn't understand just what im like. they think im magically going to become comfortable being dragged around to public places. but im not. im awkward and uncomfortable, and i panic.
i really wish i wasnt like this, i have tried, and its never worked. i mean i had spent a few hours crying in the bathroom of a hospital on thansgiving for gods sake after sitting around for so long just for some stupid meds to get made for my cousin. yeah its gonna prevent her from catching what my uncle got, but jesus!
im just...tired of myself sometimes.








I'm saying, using the only advice I can give, is to stay positive. A really good cathartic cry or rant on paper won't hurt at all. It can actually help you feel better. Try not to think about it too much. And if you can't do that, then let it out. Holding it in will merely hurt you more. And I don't want you to hurt
Hey, maybe you can take that frustration out on art. Start drawing more. It doesn't have to be perfect. You don't have to post it. Just draw to draw. You'll be focusing your anxious energy to something more calming and fun.
*cuddles forever*